christmas + feeling

I am not certain what I was expecting… snow in L.A.? maybe, but this year didn’t feel like Christmas despite my best efforts. True, I was surrounded by faces of all sorts. Ones I love, ones I am in love with, old ones, new ones, fresh ones, furry ones. But something was still missing. And nooo, it wasn’t like one of those sad sappy Holiday songs, I wasn’t stuck in the snow miles away trying to get back home so I could take a sleigh ride and sip hot cocoa with my dog and my boyfriend. I don’t have a dog…and I was already with my loved ones… and loving them.


I’m certain I am not the only person who sits in limbo between what’s left behind and what’s to come~ I know this year is furiously coming to an end with a new one on the horizon. Now, more than ever I am plotting what 2011 may look like. And boy have I got PLANS!!! Heehhee…

Ok, well, no matter what kind of Christmas spirit you may have been in, there is one thing that can cheer up any scrooge…without a doubt…. and I truly believe it’s these beautiful faces below.

thought for the day

"I have come here to say that i do not recognize anyone's right to one minute of my life... it had to be said. The world is perishing from an orgy of self-sacraficing."~~~ Ayn Rand, author

My thought is... every minute of  life is precious. Self- imposed  suffering dulls the amazing gifts you've been given. Do not sacrafice your life; you are all you have.

Ohh Miss Rock-ett you are so fierce!

ROCK-ETT

A new year brings new goals and today I have decided to start preparing myself for the tackle. By tackle I mean- what it would mean to be completely content with the way things are right now, today, having a grateful heart… all while craving and desiring more. Ummm ok... I just read that 3 times out loud and it sounds super sweet and super split personality! I mean really, there are two sides to me that co-exist. One is always starving and the other is always satisfied. No. That’s a lie. The other is mostly satisfied and by mostly I mean usually.

BTW…the hunger I am referring to is life, happiness, career and all the things that follow and then learning to find the balance.

Thinking of this brings me to Nikki. Nikki Rockett. Gurl you definitely ROCKED-IT ! Spending the day with her and listening to her made me realize we think about these things at any age and any facet of life.

Nikki, it was a pleasure to meet you… you are full of fire in all the best ways. You are beautiful. You are fierce. You are and will be an amazing voice for your generation. You will progress. You will succeed.

At the risk of sounding too sappy, I will say this anyway~ you have big dreams and hopes, wear them on your sleeve, and on your collar, and on your fore head if you so desire. The truth is, its people like us who keep this world magical. Thank you again!

 
 

 

review.

During this time of year, the end of the year that is, I find it very easy to look back in review. The milestones, the mistakes, the magic~ you know me well enough to know I have a passionate tendency to turn each and every one of these moments into more, much more, but this year they will all serve as my building blocks. This year, I will learn and this year I will move on.

I think back to this month, last year. What a different junction. Not only did I question my career but I questioned my survival. It was hard to believe that I could ever again pursue something I loved so much. Maybe, the sum of my life was bound to a desk, in an office and in a life I cringed to think about. Most nights I would pray that was impossible. But then, I also know sometimes the worlds truths end up like a heavy sack of rocks… and there I was with it, trying to cross the river.

I was told once; I’m better off failing at something I love than achieving something I hate ~and there you have it. In ink. On the internet.

I look forward to everything 2011 brings me, well maybe not turning 31, but all the other possibilities I welcome. I thank everyone who has been a part of my life, who has believed in me, loved me and supported me!

Below is just one of the gorgeous photos of miss Nikki Rockett... Just a gorgeous girl and thank you for trusting me!

happy birthday

If you happen to still read this… then I would like to wish you a (moderately public) but very Happy  Birthday. You are an A-mazing person a wonderful father and a dear friend. It’s possible I haven’t said it enough, so I will take this opportunity. You have inspired others to be great, you’re great, and I am grate FUL. Thank you for many laughs and much support. Thank you for the years of advice (crazy or not, considered or not), and although I don’t think you look best in a mini skirt, thank you for always being my cheerleader!


Happy Birthday to a friend I will never forget.